2%

After all the team collaborations, the feedback you received is an infant number:

I’ve done 98% of the work. Yours? 2%. Don’t you agree?

What else could I say? I have to acknowledge that mine is minor, but well, 2% is indeed a shocking figure as that indicates how much your colleague has valued your presence.

Next time, don’t include me in the process. I’ll be happier to receive a 0%, to crawl solo.

 

Lost but not last

It’s nearly been 14 months since I left the school that fed me well, physically and materialistically, to gain mental and academic freedom.

And I’ve undergone quite a few challenges: being a novice teacher trainer, a lecturer, and a researcher. I wouldn’t say I’m free, not yet. Time management (or maturity?) is still a serious puzzle. I tend to say YES to all requests at my new workplace. I tend to regret just 5 seconds after that. I tend to forget what really fulfills me.

Emptiness.

When you’re overwhelmed.  When everything you’re up to is only half-way. When you have like 10 ambitious plans, all of which are partly executed. And none shows tangible outcomes.

I’m aware of my lack of professional directions: I don’t know what I’m heading to or what I want to be. A drifting log might have my companion.

Last week my first official observation was terrible. I prepared lessons for 3 hours the night before, but I ended up with teaching the lesson which I didn’t think I would cover. Sometimes you should taste insanity?

Two basic questions I’m still figuring out at the moment:

  1. How can I help my learners succeed? 
  2. How can I make a contribution to the academic community?

For sure, I’m temporarily lost.

But with all my intentions, I do hope that this will not last.

Blogging might help?

 

Top Five Unfulfilled Wishes in my ELT career

I wrote this entry back then in May, 2014 entitled “Top Five Unfulfilled Wishes in my ELT career” in an online training for online teachers offered by The Consultants-E

Thanks God item 1 has become true. Item 2 will be haft completed in November (English Teaching Professional has agreed to publish a resources article, counting days towards then).
Item 3 and 4 not as important at the moment.
I’ll add a keyword for item 5: Master by Research. I really wish to ear a graduate degree, completing a decent research paper in ELT.

“I’ve heard from somewhere that the more you talk about plans, the more likely it will become true. So here are my top five unfulfilled wishes. Surely, one day I will have them all:

1. Be a presenter at IATEFL: one of the biggest annual ELT events. If I can do it, it sounds like I am starring in a Hollywood blockbuster.

2. Publish an article in either English Teaching Professional or ELT Journal. I adore these two journals. While the first one offers the best practical tips on earth, the latter makes reading research papers a rewarding experience.

3.Be treated and paid equally to a foreign teacher in my home country. I think this is a universal controversy looking from different perspectives: educational, corporate, and even legal.

4. Open my own language school. This can be possible after taking this course. An online language school. Hopefully.

5. Item #5: not necessarily exist, the Previous Four is too much luck for me already.”

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What’s your Top Five?